today was a rare day, the sort of day you can never manufacture, it just appears and gives itself to you. a perfect july day. i cleaned and hung laundry on the line and swept the porch and tidied the yard, but nothing felt like a chore. there was no pressure or stress. tennis was on, although i must admit i didn't watch too closely. i bought groceries and finished some quilts. and although all of this is rather mundane, it felt relaxing and calm and a bit luxurious as i puttered about feeling quietly pleased with all i was getting done, but without the rushed pace that usually goes along with it. edgar and i walked along the lake. i brought him home and went back to the little beach to collect glass....it was the first time this year. and i brought home a wonderful little bucket of pebble softened glass and fragments of tile and ceramic.
a marvelous day!

i'm home and i'm happy. it's a little blustery outside....i'm still hoping for a warm bright spring to appear and stay for more than an afternoon. i worked at the bookstore tonight. and i came home brimming with all the energy it provides. i love the people who i work with. and the customers who are almost always funny & interesting & generous of spirit. tom works early in the morning. so although he waited for me to get home, he's gone off to bed, leaving me to watch tennis i dvr-ed from the weekend. edgar is on the couch with me. stella is curled up next to him. there is a little fire in the fireplace. the windows are dark. and i just had a snack of cherry tomatoes and tzatziki. there are dishes in the sink, but i'll put them in the dishwasher in the morning. right now i'm basking in a happy moment. it's important to recognize these moments and love them without distraction.

i worked at the bookstore this morning. filling in for a friend. and we had a busy afternoon with last minute things for the latest house project we're doing. we take possession tomorrow and we had to get the cheque at the bank and take it to the lawyer as well as have our final walk-thru at the house. driving home from the lawyer's i noticed a woman walking. everything about her seemed smooth and unruffled. yoga pants and pea jacket. scarf. and a pleasing aura of calm. i'm not even sure she knew she had this gift. i'm intrigued with the idea that i could wear the same clothes and my stride down the street would certainly not be unruffled. i can easily find a shield of calm when i need it in my tangle of energy, but it's the effortless polished visual that i covet. something that very few have naturally. once effort comes into play, the beauty of it is destroyed. i was reminded today how each of us is presented so differently to each other. fascinating.